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February 29, 2008

McDonalds Sausage Rolls or the Reason Why Paris Can Keep Their Croissants

Sausage_roll The pastry of McDonalds sausage rolls is so flaky that it actually flutters around your tongue are you bite into it. Your teeth have time to notice the fragrant void in between the crispy layers as they hurtle towards the meat. The meat is sausage and sausage is good, too.

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Normally I want to eat a sausage roll no more than twice a year and when I do have one, I never seem to finish it. Nigel Slater mentions this phenomenon in Eating for England; the sausage roll that at first seems like the most perfect and desirable food by the end is verging on revolting. But not this one. They got everything right and it's a pleasure until the end.

They're so good I will even forgive the missing apostrophe in the shop's name. I'm sure it's a legal/copyright infringement thing anyway.

(McDonalds is also rumoured to be the makers of the best bacon roll in the city and I can honestly say that it could be a deserved reputation. It's a solid roll.)

February 27, 2008

Perfect Fries

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This is a crappier picture than I would normally post. Why is that, Gentle Readers? Because I cared more about stuffing these glorious fries into my mouth than taking a really nice, really bragging picture of them.

What you can just make out in the image above is a pile of fantastic fries with a juicy steak and a blob of homemade mayonnaise (it's that yellow because the yolks were really orange).

Yes, this was an exciting meal. In fact it was the *most* exciting thing that happened to me this past weekend. A fact that made me suspect that I might be getting old. That the era of spending (at least)four days of the week marinating at the pub before trying to find parties to crash only to walk around in the heavy aquarium of a mild-to-middling hangover the next day may be quietly ending. At least the food is better these days even if I am being groped by fewer strangers.

Another food-related sign of age arrived late last week in the following conversation:

(J called me at work to share some very good news)

K: That's great! Do you want to celebrate?

J: Sure! What should we do?

K: I have to go home after work, but you could come over and we could make dinner and get some wine.

J: OK. That sounds nice. I have a cauliflower we could use.

K: OK. Do you want me to make cauliflower cheese?

J: Yeah!

K: I have custard and bananas that we could have for dessert.

J: Yeah!

K: Did we just agree to celebrate your big news with a completely pale yellow meal?

J: Yeah!

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You know, you move to Europe to become an artist and the glamour just doesn't end.

In celebration of all of the gentle pleasures of gently aging, I am going to dedicate the methodology for these perfect fries to my dad who just celebrated his birthday on Monday. You would have loved these and I'll make them for you the next time we happen to be on the same continent.

Here it is:

I cut the potatoes (thin skin on) into little strips with my mandolin.

The suckers were parboiled for about 15 minutes and then were drained and rinsed in very cold water. After they were completely cooled, they hung out in a colander for a while to dry off.

A thick layer (but not that deep, not that scary) of oil was heated in a large pan and chopped rosemary was tossed in.

Once the oil was hot, I put half of the potato strips in. Enough to cover the bottom of the large pan without overlapping. I then threw in some chopped garlic.

Nothing happened for a number of minutes.

Then, all of a sudden, they started to firm up and brown and become delicious. I tossed them about to get their pale bellies crispy, too.

The done ones were fished out, salted, and shoved into a warm oven. Then, the second batch of potatoes went in to the oil and everything was repeated.

Two portions of steak, fries and homemade mayo were divvied up and then promptly and utterly consumed. We didn't look at each other while we ate, we didn't make conversation, we didn't touch our wine. We just ate steak and fries and smears of mayonnaise. I think we made some guttural noises of animal satisfaction. After the demolition, we leisurely turned our attention to our glasses and the crisp bowl of salad between us and had a little chat about how this is a meal that should be repeated. But not too often. This perfect fry-making ability is a dangerous new skill to have discovered.  I'm turning into a wise and deadly old broad.

February 26, 2008

Lion's Butterscotch Gums: A Curious New Treat

Butterscotch_gums As I write this, my tongue is trying to nimbly disengage a wad of toffee from one of my back molars. It's a big lump of firm candy that rocks my teeth to their very foundation when I try to chew it. So far my teeth, strengthened by my somewhat attentive cleaning and pretty regular trips to the dentist, are winning and the mass is dissolving and I am happy and content. I know that one day in my future though, a toffee will probably be the downfall of my gnashers. I'll sheepishly arrive at my dentist (still looking quite trim and alluring for 96), with a lump of gooey candy bejeweled with a tooth or two.

And while this is a good toffee, there is another candy that I can't quite forget. The candy that I discovered on that fateful day, yesterday, as J and I pretended to be yuppies in the West End. Byres Road now has a sweets shop called (don't gag) I Heart Candy. And while the overall decor is a little sickly twee (yes, even for a candy store), they do have a very decent selection of many strange British sweeties. I wasn't going to succumb because I am still actively trying to ween myself off of wine gums, but on a low shelf, almost hidden away, J discovered Lion's whole range of gummy candies. Midget Gems, Sports Mixture, the licorice and anise ones and these: Butterscotch Gums. How could one's interest not be piqued?

These are complex little nuggets. They have a stubborn gummy texture that does not dissolve with a couple of bites unlike other inferior gummy candy. And the first few chews yield a lovely and rich butterscotch flavour; buttery and smooth. But there is a distinct lemon note as well that cuts through the sweetness. The end result tastes just like something I've had once but that's only remembered by my taste buds. Like a lemon meringue pie with butterscotch sauce or a caramelized tarte au citron. Actually, having just tried another one to try and arrive at a precise description, it tastes like lemon and butterscotch Jello Pudding had a delicious little gummy candy baby. But not too sweet. And not at all milky. Very, very curious. And all of that intrigue means that it's impossible to eat just one. Impossible. Your tongue and your brain will be just too, too curious.

February 20, 2008

Soda Bread with Rosemary and Pistachios - A Recipe for Jess

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Here are some reasons to make this bread:

1) You are smart and talented enough to do it.

Have you ever made soda bread before? A goat could do it. Honestly. And it's so good that you would still want to eat it even if it was decorated in hoof prints. What's it involve? You mix flour, water, salt and baking powder together in a ball, throw it in the oven and bake it until it's bread. That's right. It's that easy, but miraculously doesn't turn into inedible paste. This bread will form a more satisfying loaf than cornbread and has a far less finicky dough than biscuits or scones and this makes it a trooper and a saint amongst quick breads.

2) This is perhaps the ultimate variation of the humble soda bread.

You don't have to add anything to the original recipe. It's good as it is. But the dough can be made with a multitude of different flours and its solid crumb could host any number of flavours. This is a bread that will warmly wrap new ideas into its doughy folds and incorporate them thoroughly. I started out using a recipe from Hugh Fearnley-Whittingstall for a honey and walnut soda bread loaf. It was tasty, but quite sweet and this made it an awkward partner for dinners. So I took some ideas from that recipe (mainly the ground walnuts) and perused a number of others and came up with a recipe that contained yogurt for a moist texture (and because it apparently activates the baking soda futher - more traditionally, one could use a soured milk), crushed walnuts for body and whole pistachios for taste and good looks, and some rosemary for absolute seduction.   

3) It's speedy enough to be made by the lazy after work.

Even my souped up version can be made in the small window between my arrival home and the commencement of Hollyoaks (leave Warren, Louise). It bakes during the episode and leaves you enough time to turn off the tv (in fact it was never on in the first place...I'm not an addict) and start chopping for dinner. If your dining companion is then 15 minutes late, you will be pulling out the loaf just as he arrives and give the impression that a lot of hard work has taken place, when actually you were mostly watching your stories. Theoretically.

4) Oh my god it's still winter and we still have to eat winter food.

Why won't it end? It's not cold here, but it's still very dark and very wet. A brief reprieve this past week only makes the coming days of gloom even harder to bear. And we still have to eat winter food long after that was a new and sexy idea. No one wants more stew or soup or braises and no one wants to wear their jumpers/sweaters anymore. And yet it persists. Oh well. You won't think about this bread in the summer, but it will make you feel a little bit better now.Soda_breakfast_2

5) Because we all need some flexibility in our lives.

I tried to balance the flavours in this loaf so it could make a smooth transition from evening companion to breakfast pal. When we ate the first few warm slices they were covered with wilted spinach cooked with bacon and shallots topped with a garlic fried egg and served with some garlic and cumin yogurt. Nice. This combination is pretty sure of a place in our standard rotation from now on.

The next morning I had one slice with crowdie, a very ancient and soft cheese of the Highlands, and plum jam. I then had a slice with butter and honey. I was not hungry at all for almost five hours after that. It's a filling wee bread.

6) I could not have made this any better for you.

I wish I could figure out the nutrient content of this baby! Do you see how much fiber and protein and sources of vitamins and omega 3 there are? But despite all of that, it still taste delicious. Honestly. It doesn't taste delicious the way that carob is supposed to taste delicious. Just because only really nice things went into it in the first place.

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This recipe is dedicated to Jess -- not because she has the baking expertise of a goat, in fact she is a lady at one with dough -- but because I hope it's a bread she'll be able to eat. And because I miss her most of the days of the week.

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A note for people with Sensitive Geniuses: This bread would be good for you! Does it sound like it has too much fiber for your genius? You can make it with some white flour instead, maybe with some oats thrown in. The dinner I ate last night would be pretty safe too. Just take out anything tricky like the bacon or the shallots (I know it's very, very depressing). Put some lemon in the spinach instead. Use probiotic yogurt if you can do dairy. For breakfast, skip the crowdie in favour of jam, honey, avocado or even some old, hard cheese (the lactose breaks down over time making it easier to digest for some).

P.S. I first categorized this under British Food Recipes. Can you imagine? Dan would have murdered me in my sleep. This is clearly a recipe for Irish Soda Bread and it now has its own category even if nothing else ever comes to join it.

February 18, 2008

Answers to Your Google Searches: Pregnancy and Haggis

I often check in on how my nascent web empire is progressing. I take a look at the number of people reading this site via my stats page (a couple of times a day like a sicko). These charts and numbers stroke my fragile and brittle ego and also provide some illuminating information. What do people read most? Which sites send the most readers my way? How long do people linger? But true intrigue arises when someone comes across the site through a google search. Then the stats page then allows me to click on the link and see what keywords the person used. This can be very interesting. Sometimes they've just typed in "ginger tablet" and so possibly my site has been useful. But sometimes people are searching for some interesting information and decide to give my site a try, and looking back, I can see that they wouldn't have found what they were looking for. I hate it when I know that I didn't answer their question. I like having the right answer. I like getting gold stars. It's a common personality among dedicated cooks and a mandatory one among food bloggers.

To address this situation, I'm going to occasionally provide a (late and probably now useless) response to these anonymous queries. I'm starting with my favourite one of the week:

can i eat haggis during pregnancy

Good question Anonymous Searcher! I have no idea. But, I did a little research myself into this matter. I think there are two things that could be an issue for a haggis-craving pregnant gal. First of all, haggis contains liver and liver contains vitamin A. Apparently you aren't supposed to eat too much of that while you're pregnant because amounts dangerous to your wee baby could build up. Liver is a really rich source of vitamin A and so should be generally avoided. In my extremely non-professional opinion, the amount in one serving of haggis is probably not an issue, though. There's lots of other offal and grains in there diluting the liver content. Besides, not all haggis even has liver in it. And everyone needs a little bit of vitamin A. It's not like anyone is telling the pregnant to avoid carrots or mangoes. Just don't have a haggis supper every night. (Ugh. Can you imagine?)

The other issue is the more serious threat of listeria. That's a bacteria that's found in many soft, unpasturised dairy products and can also lurk in poorly cooked meats. It also thrive in pates (imagine the correct accents please) and the pregnant are told to definitely avoid it in all forms. I am not sure why pate can be such a problem, but I suspect it's because you basically mix raw meats and then cook them slowly at a low temperature. It might never get quite hot enough to thoroughly kill the nasty little guys. Also, many pre-cooked meats can get contaminated while they are being packaged, so it's important for those heavy with child (I will absolutely murder anyone who addresses me in that manner if I ever get knocked up, btw. How horrible is that expression?) to make sure that anything pre-cooked has been really, really heated before eating. Maybe the packaging process is an issue for pate, too.

So could haggis, being a delicious product of many mixed meats, harbour listeria? I contemplated it, but again in my near-ignorance, I don't really think so. Haggis is cooked for ages and ages; you'd simmer one from the butcher for about 3-4 hours and even a pre-cooked grocery store should be re-heated for 45 minutes or an hour. You have to serve this hot. 

If there wasn't a tiny and fragile little guy at stake I would tell Anonymous Searcher that she should probably avoid eating cold haggis pakora from her local Spar (not making this delicacy up), but that a well-cooked portion at her mom's house is probably going to be fine. If she could make sure that it was really, really cooked then all the bacteria should be killed off. As the life of a tiny little dude is weighing in the balance, I hope that Anonymous Searcher asked a medical professional for guidance. There didn't seem to be any answers on the web. I wasn't the only useless one. Phew.

(On a separate, but thematically-aligned note, I just saw Juno and I thought it was a bit flawed. Didn't quite hang together for me. She did the right things, but in a super annoying way and all I was really interested in was her parents. How did they navigate the whole blended family dynamic? Why did they name their kid Liberty Bell? What was it like when they were pregnant? How did they resist the urge to hit their child repeatedly? I wish the movie had been about them instead. Plus movies with pop culture references are always tricky, and it seemed pretty forced here. By the end my face was locked into a tight incredulous grimace that only shifted due to my urge to vomit during the last extremely fucking cloying scene. I really wanted to like this one. Oh well.)

February 11, 2008

A Reason to Love the BBC

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It is very easy to make fun of Bill Granger (I not even going to start, but have a go yourself. See? So easy.) and it is very easy to be jealous of his coastal Australian existence that brims with fresh fruit and and fountains of ricotta and very tiny children in twee dresses. And I don't have a problem with him really.  His recipes somehow do manage to look pretty good, come together quite quickly and retain nutritional value. So way to go. That's not the easiest thing to do. Nice job, Bill.

This is what gets me; his restaurant is called bills. That's right. No capital letter and no apostrophe.

Here's how the New York Times explained it:

"Mr. Granger would rather you called Bill's bills. A onetime art student, he dislikes the look of the capital B and the apostrophe in the more conventional spelling, so he does not use them."

My goat is resoundingly got. So he decided to perhaps try and be a little self-effacing and casual in naming his restaurant and ended up reminding us only of the most hated kind of mail and the most depressing point of any restaurant trip while simultaneously forcing us to question his grasp of rudimentary grammar. This has fuck all to do with being an art student. Don't start the sentence about his stupid language ideas with a clause about his art school days. (They aren't alone. Every single article about him has to address this ridiculous conceit and many of them make this art school/apostrophe allergy link.)

Anyway, on Saturday morning, as I was quietly being a former art student and stringing many yards of beads and pearls and forming complete and grammatically accurate sentences in my head, I noticed that the little promo for the upcoming show on BBC 1 said:

Bill's Food.

That's right. The BBC staff just couldn't take the irritating real title of his show - bills food - and decided to correct it. The BBC staff are my new best friends.

February 08, 2008

Self-Promotion is a Dish Best Served Repeatedly

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No food today, just plugs.

If you're able to, please join me on February 16th (7 - 9 pm)at the Project Room in Glasgow. I'll be showing a small collection of new work with the talented and deranged Mair Hughes. (The great picture on the invitation was taken by Ms Hughes; I can only take credit for donating the pearls.)

I'll be making some cakes so if you can't come by the show, come back here for the pictures.

(I'd like to thank some people for supporting me and this work, especially the Glasgow Visual Artists Grant Scheme for their surprising faith and benevolence, my brothers the Bead and Pearl Patrons, J for putting up with me, Dad and Ri for their lovely and timely gift, and Grampa and Ethel for coming all the way from London to attend this event. Hopefully this show won't let any of you down. If it does I'm not refunding anything. You'll have to console yourself with more cake.)

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If this event isn't floating your boat, you could check out J's new website instead. Nice huh? I think so. 

 

February 06, 2008

Did You Get Some?

Pancake Day! I had some with lunch and some for dinner. Round 2 was filled with a sweetened lemony fromage frais and loads of gently stewed blackberries that are still kicking around from J's foraging along the canal last autumn, and some maple syrup on top, too. Guild that Easter lily.

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Amazing.

In other amazing news, Helen Mirren ate a Tunnock's Tea Cake on tv the other night. And while I am going to deduct points for whinging about being on a diet and how she really shouldn't (not sexy -- act your way through it, Helen), her tea cake etiquette was exquisite. That is, cracking the chocolate shell first and using a piece as a scoop to pull out the marshmallow. She got extra points for then sticking her finger into the cake to get more marshmallow (and thus bringing sexy back). She should have proceeded to eat the biscuit base after the marshmallow and chocolate had been demolished, but she wrapped it up and 'saved it for later'. Suspect. Let's pretend she ate it once filming stopped.

February 05, 2008

A Trip to Glickman's and Deep Histories of Midget Gems and Soor Plooms

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Starting in the 1600s, loaded ships returned from plantations in the West Indies, windind their way down the Clyde, and flooding Scotland with inordinate amounts of sugar. Scotland has an uneasy relationship with these historical cargoes, filled with not only with sugar, but also tobacco and cotton from plantations often run by Scottish owners.  As one of the main European ports for the last leg of the slavery triangle, it saw only the cheap and plentiful goods and ample wealth that the ships brought in, none of the horrific human sacrifices that underpinned these vessels. And while English cities have increasingly made an effort to acknowledge these difficult histories, in Scotland there has been an unwillingness to see the history of slavery as something that stained north of the border as well. Perhaps it is difficult for a place that so often remembers itself as victim to acknowledge its role as perpetrator; it makes it more complex. The legacy of the Atlantic slave trade in Glasgow has been a crop of beautiful buildings, a voracious sweet tooth and a continuing silence.

While all of this sugar had been making its way into baked goods and some candies for a couple of hundred years, there was an explosion of boiled sweets made around Glasgow during the Victorian era. At that time the sugar was no longer produced by slavery which had been abolished by 1830s (although I would be willing to bet that harvesting that crop isn't a job I would have wanted), but there was still a huge glut of cheap sugar coming into a very enthusiastic market. I know this because many of these old sweets are described beautifully in the book From Petticoat Tails to Arbroath Smokies: Traditional Foods of Scotland, by Laura Mason and Catherine Brown (Harper Press, 2007). This lovely volume is part of a wider study undertaken by the authors at the behest of the EU to detail the regional foods of European countries. In the end they found 400 food items from all over the British Isles. This report was never released by the UK government, but was eventually published in its entirety (most recently by Harper Press), and then subsequently into separate regional volumes. To make it into this collection, the foods must have been produced in that location for at least 75 years, and they must still be made to this day, even if in tiny quantities by only one or two producers. I find this exciting because I am a dork, but also because it provides me with a new map of Scotland, a guide to small local specialties to be sought out and tasted while one is traveling about. Boiled sweets, so called because the sugar is simply boiled to a high temperature before being mixed with flavourings and colourings and then shaped, are some of the delicacies most local to me.   

As I mentioned in the post below, gummy candies have been my one true friend and solace over the past week. J is a willing accomplice in the demolition of these bags, but with every bite he would complain that they weren't the sweets of his youth. Any Midget Gem (they're like diminutive wine gums) I bought was just too soft and the black ones were flavoured with blackcurrant and not licorice. They weren't the Lion Brand Midget Gems he remembered. But despite looking around every shop I visited, I couldn't find them. This was now a bit of a mission; I was curious to try these gems, and also track down some of the old and traditional boiled sweets of central Scotland, so I made my way to Glickman's in the east end of Glasgow.

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This shop first opened in 1903 and is still operated by the same family, four generations later. The facade is exactly what you want in a candy store. Old signs and elaborate displays of sweets who were invented long before your parents. But although it looks expansive from outside, inside it's really just a tiny little counter paved with countless cellophane bags of goodies and high walls completely full of shelves completely full of jars of sweets. The rest of the space is taken up by the work area where they make a number of the treats for sale. In the middle of all of this sits the exceedingly pleasant owner, Irene Birkett, who runs the shop with her daughter.

I waited in line behind two older ladies who each ordered approximately eight different kinds of sweeties. I like to think that these were routine purchases of old favourites to dole out to grandkids and to slowly suck for a bit of brightness in quiet moments. There is something so dear about a pack of glittering boiled sweets, distributed now and then like small jewels. While there is no doubt that excessive sugar consumption plays a major role in many of the health issues plaguing Scotland (a particularly damning article here), I think shops like Glickman's should be a safe-haven for sweeties. Sure you can get rid of the sugar in your yogurt or coffee or cereal, you can stop eating industrial candy from regular shops, but saving a little space for a carefully crafted sweet is ensuring a bit of profound joy and not very much harm. These are not the dangerous culprits of the modern diet.

I was glad that these ladies took their time because the towering rows of jars presented an overwhelming choice for a girl raised on the plastic candy bounty of Seven Eleven. I spied my number one target first: Lion Brand Midget Gems. In fact I had seen the boxes in the window, but I was still nervous that they were a relic and not an auspicious sign for goodies inside. I decided next on some acid green orbs called Soor Plooms (if you had a Scottish accent, this would roughly rhyme with Sewer Blooms), or sour plums. There were a couple of elements that made this sweet the one for me. First of all, I love most things flavoured with plum. But I also wanted to try them because I had a sneaking suspicion their name was taken from the motto of Galashiels, a small town in the Borders where my grandmother was born. Once the ladies had left, I chatted with the lovely owner who sympathized with my troubles finding the original Midget Gems and assured me that they almost always had them in stock. I asked her about the provenance of Soor Plooms, and although she wasn't sure of the Borders connection, she did tell me that they got them from a company in nearby Greenock (once called Sugaropolis for the large numbers of refineries there) that had been making them forever. I picked up a bag of brown sweets, perfunctorily called Candy Balls, because they were a specialty of the shop, made on site. And then, with my jaunty paper bag, I left to rot my teeth.

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The Candy Balls were very nice. The amber colour must be evidence of a caramelization of the sugar, and indeed that's all they really taste like. They're just sweet. But they have a silky and smooth texture that I think must come from the addition of cream of tartar (it prevents sugar crystals from forming). The Candy Balls, not actually balls, but snipped bits of a long candy strand, just slip across your tongue without the painful mouth cutting of many of their boiled sweets counterparts. This is as sensual and pure as a hard candy gets.

And J was pleased with his Midget Gems, too. They were hard and unyielding and the black ones were a shocking licorice. He likes the contrast they provide when eaten with the other fruity flavours. Apparently the company has been bought by Maynards, the brand most pervasive and whose wine gums are just too soft and taste too much of icing sugar for my liking. They are supposedly changing the black ones to the now ubiquitous blackcurrant flavour. I think that some sort of legislation should be brought in to prevent companies messing with candy recipes. There is no surer way to depress someone than to wreck one of their childhood joys. I hope this untainted stock lasts a while.

A little dip back into the book confirmed that Soor Plooms were indeed invented in Galashiels. They were first made to celebrate an event back in 1337 when a small group of English marauders/soldiers (depending on which side of the border you fall) stopped in the valley to feast on some unripe plums taken from a nearby tree. This resting band were quickly captured and killed by the Scots and this, um, victory has been commemorated locally ever since. On plaques and carvings all over the the town the English are represented by a fox greedily reaching at fruit laden branches above. I remember being surprised by the long memory of the town when I went to visit, this dominating mythology based around a small event so, so long ago. I could only laugh as I tried the sweets, sour and green and delicious.

These are some candies with history! Of course, the sugar used in these sweets might have quite a different background now; it could just as easily been from beets. But that's a sugar with a tale as well. The French developed the technology for extracting it from that vegetable during the Napoleonic Wars because of blockades placed by the English stopping their sugar supply. Beets provided a reliable domestic crop for sugar that quickly became popular in continental Europe and then later in the UK during the First World War in the UK.

It takes a long time to suck away at a Soor Ploom. Enough time to mull over all of the layered stories, the difficulties and the bitterness and the blood that formed it. And enough time to cast a calculating glance at your Northern English boyfriend as he innocently and obliviously pops one more handful of Midget Gems into his mouth. Perhaps I'll let him live this time...

February 01, 2008

The Sensitive Genius Within

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Deep in the recesses of my guts, I have a Sensitive Genius.

Did you know that the digestive system has as many neurons as the brain? When we are tiny, tiny little blobs of pre-baby, our brain cells and our digestive cells start out connected and only later on drift away from each other. Our digestive system almost operates like a second brain; the neurons are able to control our digestion independently of the no.1 brain in our heads (this is called the enteric nervous system). In my case that bright little bundle of neurons that went on to create my dazzling intellect seems to have parted from an equally active and imaginative little bundle that went on to create my guts. And that second brain, the Genius Within, did not want to go unnoticed.

He's all screwed up, the Genius. He's absolutely paranoid for one thing. He totally misinterprets it when my head brain tells him there is something to be nervous or stressed about. Instead of taking a deep breath and getting some perspective, or unleashing a herd of butterflies in my stomach in the case of something really scary, he unleashes excruciating cramps that leave me unable to walk. Sometimes over things that are really trivial. Things that my head brain knows will work out just fine.

He's moody and sensitive, too. Our guts are regulated by the hormone serotonin (the stuff that makes the head brain happy); it makes our intestines move smoothly. Except mine can't keep his dosage regular. There's a problem with the receptors of the cells in my guts. There's too much serotonin some days, nothing the next; the Genius is all over the place. And that effects how everything works. It also affects how everything feels. The fluctuations of the Sensitive Genius makes me way more sensitive to pain than people with 'normal' guts. Every other part of me is super tough, but whacked out hormones just make the Genius feel way more. And do you know where half of all of our nerve endings live? Yup. In our guts. Once again, excruciating.

This is a real condition that people know really very little about. The research into how hormones affect the enteric system seems to be the most promising, so that's the version I'm sticking with. But really, the experts don't know how people get it or really how to help them. I'm going to keep on being euphemistic, but if you need to know, or if you have something similar, here's a link. It's estimated that between 10-20 percent of the population may be living with this and most of them will be undiagnosed.

I've known about this for a long time now, and I've done a lot to calm down the Sensitive Genius. By trial and a whole lot of error, working with a dietitian and a therapist and by learning a lot about food and digestion, I'm able to keep The Genius pretty stable. Most of the time he feels like he's in a good place; he's had a book published, he found a part-time lecturing job, he has a small group of peers that find him interesting and maybe even wins the odd grant. But now and then he feels like I'm forgetting about him. That I'm not taking his brilliance seriously. Maybe even that I'm too concerned with my own career to notice his. And then he gets into a violent rage and then I can't move for a few days. Sometimes the event that sets him off is obvious (I was pretty sick right around the end of both of my degrees), but other times, like this past weekend, it's very hard for me to say.

To calm him down, I go back to the basic diet that my deititian first put me on four or five years ago. It's pretty boring and features things that are really easy to digest only. This excludes a lot of foods that are very healthy (most whole grains, many vegetables) and a lot of foods that are very fun (chocolate, tea, alcohol). So once the Genius is calm again (I'll read his latest manuscript and tell him of its lucid poetry so unexpected in a biography of Elizabeth Hurley) I'll start introducing the other foods; the good stuff.  I always keep the basic diet in mind, and I'm careful not to add in too many difficult foods, but sometimes I get the balance wrong and the Genius gets indignant.

This blog isn't going to turn into a tale of my struggles with the Genius. This is firstly because the condition is gross and I find it embarrassing and it's pretty much the last thing that anyone wants to think about when imagining adventures with food. But secondly because it really doesn't bother me that much. 97% of the time I'm completely fine and the Genius is happy, just working away. But from now on, if I post a recipe that's easy to digest and could be pretty safely consumed by other people with their own Sensitive Geniuses, then I'll label it as such. And if you ever have any questions about this condition, treatments, foods to eat safely, fiber, etc. send me an email (gingertablet (at) googlemail (dot) com) and we can talk about it.

I wish I could post some good links for forums and websites, but I haven't found anything that I could back. If you have a problem like this, or if you think you might but haven't been diagnosed, I would go to your doctor. I would also find a dietitian who specialized in GI difficulties. The Genius used to be out of control and I was in a lot of pain every day. Now he's pretty happy and most days we both just get on with being brilliant and leave each other alone. 

Since I've been restricted to the land of joyless eating, wine gums (only a few...) and pretzel sticks have been my best friends this week. I've also been eating a lot of oats, bananas, avocados, tuna and pretty plain pasta.Slide2

Next week I promise to put the powerpoint away, get the camera out and talk about some nice food. By then the Genuis will probably be back at work on his new ballet. He tells me that it will concern the ill-fated love of Mary J Blige and Chekhov. I just wish he would shut up already.